For those keeping score:
Testosterone - 0 Estrogen - 300
For those keeping score:
Testosterone - 0 Estrogen - 300
We're playing Pokémon Go and actually having fun.
There has been far too much adulting happening in my life over the past week, but I guess that's how you actually get stuff done. Today marks the first day of the next step in my transition journey, the one where I actually begin HRT. I suppose I should be over the moon at this, but honestly, I'm just tired. It's a good kind of tired though, the kind of tired where you know you've done some hard work and can see the fruits of your labour. Anyway, in addition to finally getting over my fear of doctors and medicine and getting my prescription for the first batch of femme 'n emms, as my friend Meagan calls them, I had a meeting with our HR manager and a couple of supervisors at work on Thursday. The result? In summary, it was the most support I've felt in a long, long time.
My first question for management was, since we're a large multinational company, is there an existing procedure in place for handling a transition? No sense reinventing the wheel, right? The response was somewhat unexpected - "We don't have anything in place for Ontario, so we get to set the standard." No pressure, right? Anyway, after laying out my likely timeline at this point and asking questions about what documentation was required and what our insurance covered, the management team went out of their way to reassure me that this was all about me and my comfort. Questions about disclosure to the rest of the employees were asked and the sketch of a strategy was drawn up. The takeaway from the meeting, at least on a functional level, was that I work in a pretty damn awesome place and my coworkers and managers respect me. This will not turn out to be an Internet horror story. I get that not everyone is as privileged as me with respect to coming out in the workplace because of a lot of factors. I also get that there has been a lot of ground lost in the struggle for basic human rights lately. That being said, there are good stories out there and mine is one of them. I acknowledge that I have certain privileges because of my age, my experience, my education, and the country that I reside in. My hope is that I can use this privilege to make things a little easier for anyone following me on a similar journey at my company.
The second takeaway from the meeting, on a personal level, was that I was able to hold my own in a meeting with top level management and not look like a complete idiot. I think that, I've been selling myself too short for a lot of years, for a bunch of different reasons. The people I met with were inspiring to me in their belief and commitment and drive. This is an environment that I want to explore, away from the front line, surrounded by people who have their shit together and are able to make people feel comfortable in difficult situations. The boss fight from the last level is completed, the loot has been divided, the gear has been upgraded and the achievement has been logged. It's time to do the baby quests of this level and work towards the next one.
I've been down sick most of this week, so that means I didn't get an episode out the door or much of anything done really. What I did do was lie in bed and watch a ton of YouTube videos. The one that I enjoyed the most was the mini-series Shock and Awe: The Story of Electricity, part of the BBC series Horizon. Presented by theoretical physicist and broadcaster Jim al-Khalili, Shock and Awe appealed to me because it was very much in the same vein as Connections, Coast, and Time Team. If you're a fan of science documentary, you will enjoy this one. The photography is gorgeous, the explanation of concepts is top notch, and the vintage lab equipment is fun to watch. Seriously, if I had watched Shock and Awe when I was in University, it would have made my AC Power course a whole lot easier to deal with.
I just discovered this series last night and thought I would share it with you. This is really something that needs more investment and expansion. Currently, there are 6 eopisodes about 8 minutes long. The series is written, produced and stars actual trans and queer women and realistically examines the issues that we face every day.
Her Story is a 6-episode new-media series that looks inside the dating lives of trans & queer women as they navigate the intersections of desire & identity.
Her Story is currently streaming on YouTube. Here is a link to Episode 1.
Ever wonder why that rural road you're driving down does an S-Curve for no apparent reason? Geoff Manaugh explains that it could be a correction in the Cartesian road grid to account for the curvature of the earth.
A couple of stories cane up on social media this week that just left me shaking my head. The first one comes out of Edmonton where a Catholic School Board Trustee says that transgender students have a "mental disorder".
Ok, let me get this straight - you believe in the infallibility of the Pope, a virgin birth, women being created from the rib of a man, a burning bush, parting the Red Sea and creating the heavens and the firmament in six days, but someone whose ideas about gender don't square with yours has a mental disorder?
I was looking for something else on YouTube this morning when I stumbled across this interview of Carl Sagan by Peter Gzowski on Morningside January 20, 1995.
I wish I had the physical ability to do this, but unfortunately, I can only cheer these women on as I find my own thing to do.
Why I Dance is a pole dance film about women who come together to reclaim their bodies and themselves. In celebration of all women everywhere. The proceeds of our original track will benefit the California Women's Law Center, fighting for social justice for women and girls. Purchase here: whyidance.bandcamp.com
About a week ago I went out to the back of my building, and there, sitting next to the dumpster, was a bike. At first I thought it was either stolen or intentionally parked there, but when I looked closer I saw that it had two flat tires and the rear brake cable was hanging off.
I had been looking for a rack for my current bike, as well as some handlebar extensions, and this one had both, so I picked it up and carried it back to my apartment figuring at least I could grab some parts. When I got a closer look at it though, the wheels started turning, both in my head and on the bike. A closer once-over revealed that the componentry was, while not top flight, at least decent and there. Hmm.
A quick internet search showed that Peugeot sold the Urbano Hybrid from 1993 to 2001 with various OEM components. The 1991 MSRP of $299 would put the bike at a $525 price point today. More thinking.
Ok, so, after giving the bike the hairy eyeball for the afternoon, I decided it was a keeper. I'm limited for space in my place and I already have one bike up here. Ten minutes of squirting WD-40 and messing around freed up the stuck brake cable and seized cantilever.
Further inspection revealed the following list:
* The tires are pretty much toast. The treads are good, but the sidewalls are badly weather-checked. * The brake pads are toast. * The rims are a little out of whack, but not seriously.
All of these things are relatively minor service items that I can handle myself. I don't really want to ride my Miyata in the winter, and this one already has a rack on it. Ok, decision made. I'm going to put some cash into it and make it the winter shopping bike. Here we go!
Voting While Trans is a website to guide trans individuals through the voting process and ID requirements in the upcoming federal election. It also provides information on what to do if you feel you have been discriminated against and who to contact.
Last night I sat down with Sabrina Miller from the Changes in Latitudes Podcast to talk about my transition, creativity, and of course, podcasting. I'll post a link to the episode as soon as it drops, but in the mean time, why not browse her back catalog?
"Maggie, why don't you want to drink milk out of a sippy cup instead of a bottle?"
"Okay" says the gym teacher, "Everyone line up, boys on one side, girls on the other".
The cisgender person lines up.
The transgender person moves from the line they were told to be in to the line they identify with.
The bigender person runs back and forth from one line to the other.
The gender fluid person runs in circles, screaming.
The agender person says "So long, suckers" and goes home.
It's an hour away. I pop a tire in the parking lot of KAL Tire, and it would still take an hour to get to me.
Universe created in six days? - No problem.
Burning bush? - That's cool brah!
Woman made from the rib of a man? - Yup. Says so in the book.
Parting the Red Sea with a stick? - I'm down with that.
Virgin birth? - Yeah baby!
Dead guy resurrected after 3 days and ascends directly into the sky? - Awesome!
Person self-identifies as a different gender? - You're delusional!!!!!
Why the hell is it that people who believe so many things that may or may not have happened thousands of years ago just can't believe what their fellow human beings are saying right now? If you don't agree with them, why not just nod and smile pilitely and move along with your day? I mean seriously, WTF is wrong with people.