So It Begins, Again

There has been far too much adulting happening in my life over the past week, but I guess that's how you actually get stuff done. Today marks the first day of the next step in my transition journey, the one where I actually begin HRT. I suppose I should be over the moon at this, but honestly, I'm just tired. It's a good kind of tired though, the kind of tired where you know you've done some hard work and can see the fruits of your labour. Anyway, in addition to finally getting over my fear of doctors and medicine and getting my prescription for the first batch of femme 'n emms, as my friend Meagan calls them, I had a meeting with our HR manager and a couple of supervisors at work on Thursday. The result? In summary, it was the most support I've felt in a long, long time.

My first question for management was, since we're a large multinational company, is there an existing procedure in place for handling a transition? No sense reinventing the wheel, right? The response was somewhat unexpected - "We don't have anything in place for Ontario, so we get to set the standard." No pressure, right? Anyway, after laying out my likely timeline at this point and asking questions about what documentation was required and what our insurance covered, the management team went out of their way to reassure me that this was all about me and my comfort. Questions about disclosure to the rest of the employees were asked and the sketch of a strategy was drawn up. The takeaway from the meeting, at least on a functional level, was that I work in a pretty damn awesome place and my coworkers and managers respect me. This will not turn out to be an Internet horror story. I get that not everyone is as privileged as me with respect to coming out in the workplace because of a lot of factors. I also get that there has been a lot of ground lost in the struggle for basic human rights lately. That being said, there are good stories out there and mine is one of them. I acknowledge that I have certain privileges because of my age, my experience, my education, and the country that I reside in. My hope is that I can use this privilege to make things a little easier for anyone following me on a similar journey at my company.

The second takeaway from the meeting, on a personal level, was that I was able to hold my own in a meeting with top level management and not look like a complete idiot. I think that, I've been selling myself too short for a lot of years, for a bunch of different reasons. The people I met with were inspiring to me in their belief and commitment and drive. This is an environment that I want to explore, away from the front line, surrounded by people who have their shit together and are able to make people feel comfortable in difficult situations. The boss fight from the last level is completed, the loot has been divided, the gear has been upgraded and the achievement has been logged. It's time to do the baby quests of this level and work towards the next one.

Shock and Awe: The Story of Electricity

I've been down sick most of this week, so that means I didn't get an episode out the door or much of anything done really. What I did do was lie in bed and watch a ton of YouTube videos. The one that I enjoyed the most was the mini-series Shock and Awe: The Story of Electricity, part of the BBC series Horizon. Presented by theoretical physicist and broadcaster Jim al-Khalili, Shock and Awe appealed to me because it was very much in the same vein as Connections, Coast, and Time Team. If you're a fan of science documentary, you will enjoy this one. The photography is gorgeous, the explanation of concepts is top notch, and the vintage lab equipment is fun to watch. Seriously, if I had watched Shock and Awe when I was in University, it would have made my AC Power course a whole lot easier to deal with.

Her Story

I just discovered this series last night and thought I would share it with you. This is really something that needs more investment and expansion. Currently, there are 6 eopisodes about 8 minutes long. The series is written, produced and stars actual trans and queer women and realistically examines the issues that we face every day.

Her Story is a 6-episode new-media series that looks inside the dating lives of trans & queer women as they navigate the intersections of desire & identity.

Her Story is currently streaming on YouTube. Here is a link to Episode 1.

SMH

A couple of stories cane up on social media this week that just left me shaking my head. The first one comes out of Edmonton where a Catholic School Board Trustee says that transgender students have a "mental disorder".

Ok, let me get this straight - you believe in the infallibility of the Pope, a virgin birth, women being created from the rib of a man, a burning bush, parting the Red Sea and creating the heavens and the firmament in six days, but someone whose ideas about gender don't square with yours has a mental disorder?

Why I Dance

I wish I had the physical ability to do this, but unfortunately, I can only cheer these women on as I find my own thing to do.

Why I Dance is a pole dance film about women who come together to reclaim their bodies and themselves. In celebration of all women everywhere. The proceeds of our original track will benefit the California Women's Law Center, fighting for social justice for women and girls. Purchase here: whyidance.bandcamp.com

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