So It Begins, Again

There has been far too much adulting happening in my life over the past week, but I guess that's how you actually get stuff done. Today marks the first day of the next step in my transition journey, the one where I actually begin HRT. I suppose I should be over the moon at this, but honestly, I'm just tired. It's a good kind of tired though, the kind of tired where you know you've done some hard work and can see the fruits of your labour. Anyway, in addition to finally getting over my fear of doctors and medicine and getting my prescription for the first batch of femme 'n emms, as my friend Meagan calls them, I had a meeting with our HR manager and a couple of supervisors at work on Thursday. The result? In summary, it was the most support I've felt in a long, long time.

My first question for management was, since we're a large multinational company, is there an existing procedure in place for handling a transition? No sense reinventing the wheel, right? The response was somewhat unexpected - "We don't have anything in place for Ontario, so we get to set the standard." No pressure, right? Anyway, after laying out my likely timeline at this point and asking questions about what documentation was required and what our insurance covered, the management team went out of their way to reassure me that this was all about me and my comfort. Questions about disclosure to the rest of the employees were asked and the sketch of a strategy was drawn up. The takeaway from the meeting, at least on a functional level, was that I work in a pretty damn awesome place and my coworkers and managers respect me. This will not turn out to be an Internet horror story. I get that not everyone is as privileged as me with respect to coming out in the workplace because of a lot of factors. I also get that there has been a lot of ground lost in the struggle for basic human rights lately. That being said, there are good stories out there and mine is one of them. I acknowledge that I have certain privileges because of my age, my experience, my education, and the country that I reside in. My hope is that I can use this privilege to make things a little easier for anyone following me on a similar journey at my company.

The second takeaway from the meeting, on a personal level, was that I was able to hold my own in a meeting with top level management and not look like a complete idiot. I think that, I've been selling myself too short for a lot of years, for a bunch of different reasons. The people I met with were inspiring to me in their belief and commitment and drive. This is an environment that I want to explore, away from the front line, surrounded by people who have their shit together and are able to make people feel comfortable in difficult situations. The boss fight from the last level is completed, the loot has been divided, the gear has been upgraded and the achievement has been logged. It's time to do the baby quests of this level and work towards the next one.